Can’t sleep, tossing and turning all night, filled with anger and sadness. Need to vent, so don’t mind if I do…
Ughhh you’re so fucking difficult to deal with! I expected much more from you but you are always a disappointment.
You get back from your long as walk, read my messages and you don’t have a damn thing to say to me?? I guess I really mean nothing to you!!!
You avoid every single fight, you don’t like to talk about “real” things and you can’t handle confrontation. How am I supposed to rely on you to be there for me and support me? You’ll just leave or run away when you get “scared”. I need a strong person, not a weak child.
I have made it so damn easy for you - explaining things, giving you opportunities to apologise, trying to make up with you … but you just continue to ignore me and push me away. Stop denying that you hurt me! Stop acting like you’re the only one who is hurt! It’s damn selfish and immature - I expected much more from you.
Is it so hard for you to apologize and accept your wrong-doing??? Or do I have to continue to be passive-aggressive to force a reply out of you. Nothing I say has an impact on you anymore - you probably enjoy knowing that I fall asleep crying. Sadistic jerk.
After all the things I have said to you, do you really not have anything to say back to me?? Stop behind a coward and respond.
If someone is important in your life, then don’t treat them like crap!!! Like how you are treating me. If I am important to you, you wouldn’t let me stay upset - you would try to work things out; you wouldn’t ignore what I say or ignore my feelings - you would listen and compromise; you would appreciate the efforts and sacrifices that I make for you - and not just think that I only start fights. We have fights cause we have issues, issues that you ignore and then it re-surfaces again when I am upset with you. The problem is that you never want to fight! Everything just builds up til I explode like this. Fighting and resolving issues is normal, it makes a person stronger - so since you don’t fight or resolve issues, you must be a very weak person.
If I am important to you (which you say, but I doubt your sincerity) - then make me a priority in your life and show me that I am important, that you want me to stay. Otherwise, leaving becomes an option.